I lent out my camera to a friend, so I have no way to upload photos from my point and shoot camera…..so I have to “write” blog!
Selah is still working on her “L” sound and it is virtually silent in most of her words. I hear a lot, “Ook at this Mom.” (Look at this Mom) or “Ook Mommy ook!” (Look Mommy LOOK!) However, if she says “yellow,” it kind of sounds like, “Yelllllololololoooooowww.” It’s cute. It takes her a long time to say. (can you picture her tongue going in and out of her mouth a few times?)
Well tonight when we were going to bed, she picked the book Baby Faces. It was her favorite when she was little and I told her how I used to read it to her when she was a baby and she would stare at the pictures. In that moment I realized that ALL THOSE THINGS that I SWORE I wouldn’t forget (happy memories), I had forgotten….meaning all the sights, sounds, and smells that were SO darling I just KNEW I’d always remember. How could a mother forget?
I keep a journal for Selah full of memories to give to her one day as a story of her life and the wonderful lessons we learn along the way. I have tried to keep statistics, “You weigh this much, etc.” But I also write to her as a mother and share my heart with her. I also BLOG (obviously) as a way to remember things and share our adventures with loved ones. I have a million pictures sitting on my computer. But what I realized tonight is that, although I do all these things, I still forget. I still can’t remember all the smells, sounds, and sights that I wish I could (but it also helps to forget some of the bad!). I realized that all we truly have is the MOMENT and to appreciate it. I try to remember that even during a “battle of wills!”
Selah’s taught me so much in these 3 years since I’ve been pregnant. I can’t believe she’ll be 2 in less than a month. It kind of makes me sad, but I am so excited to see the woman God created her to be. Her simple words and mispronunciations speak volumes to my heart. Sel, as your Mommy, I AM trying to “ook” all around and appreciate the moment. As your Mommy, I am trying to “ook” around and make the world a better place. I am trying to “ook” around and enjoy each phase. I am trying to “ook” around to see how I can help our fellow man. And most importantly, I “ook” at you when you’re sleeping and just love you to pieces. Thank you for reminding me to “ook.”